Put my life on a screen so i’ll at least get an applause

by kuylerquijas

I would love to be an actor
So I could destroy my life in front of millions.
I could break down and show some weakness
While pushing everyone I loved away.
All of this routine would be appreciated.
Hell, maybe I could win an oscar.
Who is an actor that’s not acting?
Much like a song bird with no lyrics.
I can’t find my purpose
It’s hard not to feel worthless
I wish cigarettes were worth less
And my dealer would hook me up just once.
But life isn’t fair like that
Even though yesterday I took five naps.
No one is in control of me.
Not even me.